Wow, I was so ready to come back to College Station this past weekend. As I visited with several friends in College Station during my 24 1/2 hours drive, I grew extremely happy and excited to see everyone, but as I arrived this excitement seemed to change to discomfort and feeling out of place. After the welcome back party at my house and everyone had parted, I felt out of place and not ready to be back in College Station. I think these feelings were stemming from the thoughts of being selfish. In Uganda, I was able to envelope myself into serving the people of Keyo and I had invested my whole self into it. Here at school, I was having extreme feelings of selfishness. Thoughts of schooling being all for my gain and not having opportunities to put my whole self into serving others around me made me a little depressed. I remember wanting to be back in Uganda so badly. Being at home in Hansel Valley was so perfect to reflect and truly digest my experiences in Uganda, especially putting on a fireside of what I had learned. I want so badly to just serve people and live for others. But, being back in College Station I felt so lost.
I cannot wait for my little teaching gig to start up again here in a couple weeks. I love working with my GED students and honestly, I am just as excited to see my students, as I was to see all my friends. It will be great to be with them again and be able to help them.
I am happy I was able to experience some of the feelings I did coming back to Texas. I recognize now that I am not being as selfish as I was feeling that first night. The schooling and training I am receiving now is preparing me to be a better servant in the future. What I am learning here is preparing me to be a better husband, father, teacher, public servant, etc. in the future. The Lord has blessed me with this opportunity and I hope to make the most of it. He is teaching me daily and I am recognizing more and more that if I take time to listen and reflect on those teachings, He is blessing me tenfold.
I am looking forward to serving my classmates, my professors, my students, my fellow ward members and my Lord throughout this season of my life.
